WTF? Am I a Widow?

Peter continued to sleep after the hot cocoa I had my maid whip up. I now suspect she put Xanax in it along with the Scotch.
I finally fell asleep and awoke hours later wrapped in a human blanket named Peter.
"Mph,kill all clowns." Peter muttered.
I gently shook him "Peter,wakey,wakey,eggs and bakey."
"All my fault, have to marry brother's wife and kill clowns."

My nervous,confused laughter awoke him as he managed to distangle himself from me.
I started to turn the tv on and was confronted with slo-mo footage of my husband
being shot.


I guess I was the one who started screaming and crying this time because an hour later, I found myself yet again being held by Peter and holding a cup of Cocoa.
In the back of my mind, I decided to ban cocoa in the house ever again.
Peter told me everything that happened and that is how I discovered that my husband is a Hero.

That is how I used to know him years ago but he had changed and became hollow
and always running to hide his depression. It was only when he started to drink that
he openly showed that he is human and needed help.
Thing is-
No one knows if Nathan is dead or alive!
WTF?
He vanished? Excuse me? OMG-what is going on? It is like some tv storyline during November sweeps!(except I can't kick producer's butt if I don't like the answer)
Peter is still insisting on take Nathan's place in our family.


So, I am taking the boy's to Nantucket for a few weeks until there
is some answer about their father. I don't even know if I am in grief or just frustrated confusion.
Oh, before I go back, I have to add this:
A man came to the door after Peter departed- I had seen him before,I don't know
where from though.

I guess he works for Nathan,he said his name was Noah.
"I am so sorry Heidi, I saw the whole thing. Is there anything you or the boys need?"
"No,I am going on a trip."
He took his hands in mine "I promise, I will keep you updated on the situation. If anything happens,please call me. Day or night."
He handed me a small card with just a phone number and e-mail address.
"I have 2 children myself and I know you need to focus on them. I will call on you soon."
Now that I think of it, I don't know how. I guess he must have all the phone numbers and e-mail addresses.
Very odd.......

Lost: ashes

Look, one thing I am not losing is my mind. I know I had my Grandmother's ashes in the urn the mortuary sold to me. I always keep the urn in my walk-in closet because Grandmother loved fashion.
Monty was helping me pick an outfit out the other day and the urn had been moved to the shoe closet.
"Monty, did you try to play with Grandma again?"
" No, it wasn't any fun. She was pretty."

"Yes she was and that is why you can't play sandbox with her." I reminded him."Now what do you think of this outfit?"

Monty went to move the urn back to the top of the middle set of dressers and stopped in his tracks.
"Um, can Grandma run away?"
"Don't be silly." I took the urn and discovered all the ashes are gone. I
looked all over. I even vaccumed each room to see if I could find her that way.
Who take her ashes? Really, I want to know? Who and why?
The only person who has visited was a really sweet girl who was looking for her dog.

I know she couldn't have done this!
Who has any need for human ashes?

Thanksgiving at the Petrellis

As if the madness hasn't already reached operatic heights, I have to be the one the family goes to for Thanksgiving dinner.

I do not even know how people are going to be arriving! R.S.V.P's only go so far when some family members are alive but missing. I have to let Dean and Deluca know my order way ahead of time.
What? I don't do cooking-why should I?
Look, I want to know if Peter is going to be there. If he is alive, I need to know if I need to add him to the table plan.

Peter always helped me with holiday meals, from planning to holding the
meals. He was my rock,my friend and he helped me believe in myself. Peter also helped me pick out outfits for each event.
When I first was unable to walk, I was an emotional mess,I mean total
wreck and it was Thanksgiving Day. I didn't want to go anywhere and I had to go
to a charity dinner Mama was heading up.
Of course, Nathan was not around,he was probably with some tramp.
"You are going and you will blow everyone away by your beauty." he whispered to me softly.
I was in bed at the time wearing my Hello Kitty pajamas and did not intend to get up.
"My life is over Peter,you have to face up to the truth."I snuffled.
That is when he actually picked me up and dragged me into my shower.
"Peter! I am your brother's wife!"
Water was soaking his clothes as he found my Philosophy shower gel "Yeah and I am a nurse and you need taking care of."
I know what some of you smutty-minded people must be thinking and he just helped me to shower.
He and I went to that dinner and had a wonderful time and it was so much fun.

Nathan never knew about that day and I doubt he would of cared. This is a new
year and I am hoping a new Nathan. An honest,caring Nathan who I can love again.
Please Peter, come home.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

My Realization

I married the wrong Petrelli,didn't I? I said DIDN'T I?
My apologies, this year has been beyond bizarre and I don't think anyone can argue with me about this.
Nathan has been cheating on me for years and now he is running about as if he is a single man.(not)
My sons could go all 'chosen ones' once they reach puberty and also getting super powers. What is a mother to do?
On the other hand,maybe they will become 'Superduper Stepford Sons'. One of the can become President of the United States! Or maybe KING! Ok, forget the king thing,unless he marries a Queen.
Uh, wait, that just sounds bad.
What would of happened if I had fallen for Peter instead? I could of been
really Emo for him. Younger guys are really trendy these days.
Peter never,ever would cheat on me and his taste in fashion can not be surpassed. He is wonderful with children and is sensitive and wow,talk about a great body.
If anyone sees Peter, could you tell him I need to see him? Nathan told me he has this power to go back in time. Hmmm....
*SIGH*
NOTE TO NATHAN:
Please get your perfect,manly butt back to me. I swear
you will enjoy the whole new Heidi.

My son Simon

Hundreds of Japanese snacks in stock at J-List

My son loves Japanese snacks- He even is learning the language. I don't know what brought this on. I am not complaining.
The boy's went to a few Halloween parties and also to the annual Hyde Park Haunted Forest. They had a good time at all of this,but still miss their father.
Nathan did stop by
"Hi Boy's what are you dressed as?" he asked both of them.
Simon spoke up "I'm dressed as Zebraman-yatta!"
"Peter, your Uncle is dead,dead!" Nathan started to sob.
Poor Monty tried to change the subject "I'm a Superhero!" He pointed at his dark Spiderman costume.
"Wahhhhhh" Nathan than ran away leaving a trail of candy behind.
*sigh* It is a start I guess....

Just need a break

I booked a suite at the Peninsula for a few days just to be able to relax!
I need to look my best when Nathan returns and the spa treatments at the Peninsula
are simply fabulous.


I ran into an old friend of mine who asked about Nathan.
"Oh Nathan is fine, he just is dealing with Mama Petrelli's health problems."
"Is that why I saw him pointing at a glass elevator and screaming "I'm melting! What a world,what a world." Ron asked and seemed rather concerned about
Nathan's reaction to the reflective surfaces.
What was I to say about that?
"Oh, Nathan is practicing." I forced a laugh "The boys want to audition for
"The Wizard of Oz" at their school. Nathan really wants to help them"
"Good old Nate."
Ron didn't seem to really believe me,but he pretended to and that is all that matters.
Well, off to my pilates class!

Where in the world is Peter?

>

I truly feel Peter is alive somewhere and is probably being angsty. I don't know why he vanished,but he will appear.
I can't explain this feeling,but I keep having dreams about him. For some reason I keep dreaming that he is on the canceled episodes of 'The Black Donnelys'
Is that crazy or what?
My son's have been watching this new tv show titled 'Chuck' Usually I I don't let them watch tv during Monday nights.(homework!) The show looks good,so I let them have that hour.

Back to Peter,
I tried many times to explain this to Nathan,but he refused to listen.
"Hic,burp." Then he would look in a mirrored surface and scream "eeeek!"
He had to have been looking at his beard,perhaps that was why he drank alot.
"He is alive,why would you think you killed him?" I would ask
"EEEEKKKK!" Look at me in the toaster!"
As you could see, these conversations never went far.
But why the Black Donnleys? Why not say,Studio 60?

I went on a date!

I went on a date last night. I was so nervous, I haven't dated for years because I was married(still married)
It was just a dinner date,I had lots of fun though.
His name is Patrick Bateman and he is a CEO or something for a corporation. I think his father owns it.
What a gentleman and so amusing as well! It was wonderful conversing with such a
SANE man!
We talked about fashions,restaurants and Donald Trump.(he really idolizes him) You should of seen him when he spotted Ivanka(Trump's daughter)
Then, I pointed out he had some red spots on his left sleeve of his jacket. He was so cute about it. He started to stutter and said it was red because of the pomegranate he ate.(very good for the skin)
The evening ended with him dropping me off on his wayy to return some dvds.
I wish Nathan was more like Patrick Bateman!

Who I Could of Married

This is a picture of an old beau of mine. He was an actor, he reminds me of someone,but
I can't figure out who.
Instead I married Nathan-son of Angela-
Do you know something? He was gone all Summer and I was barely able to sleep or eat. Mama Petrelli even kept hinting it was my fault that he vanished.
Then, he shows up one day looking like a Hobo. I am all weepy because I felt relief. My sons were so happy to see their daddy.
Mama Petrelli? Slaps him and accuses him of murdering Peter! Nate may be many things but he would never kill anyone. Especially his yang to his yin. His Huck to his Tom or something like that.
He refused to talk to me except for "Where is the whiskey?" He would not go near his
children. He waved at them,but that was it. Collin tried to shake his hand and that set off
drunken sobs from the hairy drunk of my husband.
This is a family of crazies. They make the House of Usher look stable in comparison.
I had to take my boys out of there. They have a reputation and future after all.
I know Peter is NOT dead! Why do I know this? He has called me! Ok, so I get a call
usually around 2 in the morning from Ireland or someplace like that. He is always saying "Who is this? Why am I calling?"
He always has been a bit Emo, so I play along then he hangs up.
BONKERS=PETRELLI!
This is my life folks-welcome to it!
Wow, I should of married that other guy.

Tis the end of Summer

My sons are back from Summer camp-back to the wheelchair. Now way I could explain how mommy can walk again.
One postive thing: I found a use for the handicap shower. All the rails on the walls are perfect for shaving my legs. You just hitch a leg up like during ballet and you get a great shave.
=)
I have been searching day and night for my husband. I thought I spotted him one day near Rockefeller Center. It turned out this guy had a larger bear than that Grizzly Bear guy that used to be on tv. Nathan never and I mean NEVER
would allow that to happen. He knows I would wax his face in his sleep.
I will start posting my findings here soon-
I am not a computer person-I don't really know how to show pictures.
!
(@) (@)
() <-----------This is how I feel right now

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Restaurant in Manhattan, New York City - 21 Club - Bar Room - Virtual Tour

Restaurant in Manhattan, New York City - 21 Club - Bar Room - Virtual Tour

I had a great time today, I went out in my wheel chair with Mama Petrelli. No, she didn't ride in my chair with me.
I got to the 21 Club and fell in front of it and pretended that she pushed me onto the ground.
"Help!" I cried out "This mean-looking woman pushed me onto the ground. Me, the wife of Nathan Petrelli Congressman!"
Angela hissed "Stop it,"
The nice people in the club quickly gathered me up and called the police. I bet she is still there.
Meanwhile, I had a lovely drink in the Bar Room.
Heehee

fine dining with the frenemy

I still have much to do to find the truth. The questions have been
crowding my brain.
I realized I must be a bit mad for sinking to my mother-in-law's
level of pranks. We live in the same mansion and yet I played dong-dong door ditch
at my own door!
Decided I will stop asking questions in front of Mama Petrelli,
I am sure she knows what is going on.
We had a truly yummy truce dinner at a divine restaurant that serves Tuscan food. Our family goes there alot,or used to until life go odd.
It is called Coco Pazzo and Mama picked up Pino's cookbook while she was there.
Don't get me wrong, I know how to cook, I just don't like it. With the lifestyle of the family, we rarely are home to use the kitchen anyway.
I am pleading for someone to help me find the truth about my husband and my brother-in-law. Any information would be welcome!

newest message from Nathan

I couldn't believe my eyes! Nathan has encountered that man with the 50's style glasses. You know the one with the overly friendly blonde teenager who looked like a cheerleader!
I need to find him and that girl again. Plus, perhaps I found the meaning
behind the Zucchini.
Take a look at that white cloud Nathan leaves behind-really look at it!A
cloud caused by the evil vegetable perhaps?
Hey, call that remark immature-so what? My husband allowed me to crash in a
car while he went swooping about. 10 hours of surgery I went through!
I have to forge ahead and go seek the man with the glasses and the girl.

So, I get a message from Nathan

I know this will cause people to question my sanity. I was told by Nathan that he is in Purgatory. He proclaimed he will send me as many messages as possible.
I am going with this explaination because I am a good wife. But what is
the message I get after that? Zucchini?
He never ate that when he ate with the family! It was always carrots!
(and sometimes asparagus) Is this a code of some sort? The Zucchini code of truth?
Speaking of which,I am starting to think Peter is sending me messages
also.
He was bright like one of those disco mirror balls and we were Country line dancing(why?) He told me he loved me and wept like a little girl.
I hope he is ok, I miss him so!PETER!
I mean NATHAN!

Still Missing

I dreamt that Nathan was telling me he had to get out of Purgatory before he could come home.
At this point, I am almost willing to believe anything. I just know
that I miss him. Maybe he knows where Peter is. I have e-mailed Peter,phoned Peter
and even resorted to trying to text him. All I got back was "Big Blow-out,be back later"
What?
Meanwhile, I am getting everything ready for the boys to return to
Dalton next school year. It is not easy being a single parent!
Mama called yet again. She said she was Nathan and asked if my refrigerator was running.
Ha-ha,very funny.....NOT!

Something weird this way comes

I couldn't take it anymore, I had to go shopping. I live in Manhattan,
how could I not buy things?
Had to figure out a disguise so I could go out, after all I am a 'visible figure'(which is different from 'person of interest')
Anyway, I went to a certain well-known street where there are alot of
stores. I figure with all the tourists,I could get lost even more.
I went into 'BR' in search of some clothes that said 'wife of a Congressman'
An overly perky blonde girl bumped into me! She was with some man who was attractive despite the fact he was wearing horn-rimmed glasses.
"Excuse me!" she squeaked. Then, it happened-she said "Is that you potential step mom?" Then she hugged me!
Is this some new teen fad? Randomly trying to pick up women for their
single dads?
Before I could say anything,the HRG looked at me like I was a ghost and dragged the girl out of the store.
I can't think anymore, I need some new lipgloss...

Stranger and stranger

I got a phone call from 'Nathan' today,it sounded alot like Mama Petrelli
lowering her voice. Whatever game she is playing has nothing to do with 'Clue'
I think my dreams are a key to something,except the one last night. I
was able to put it in this entry.(long story)
But who is Sylar and why does he think he is Pokemon?

So many people think that Peter is all Emo and lacks spark. I know this isn't true. This is a clip of a home video I made, we were bored and goofing around.
I am going to go play 'Ding-dong door ditch' with a certain scary
mother-in-law now. What can she do? Call the cops? I can deny it because 'I can't walk' right?
;)
As usual, if anyone has any clues about Nathan or Peter-PLEASE contact me!

Mama Petrelli visits

Mama Petrelli came to see me again. She had a small dog with her and
introduced him as 'Mr. Muggles'
She explained Mr. Muggles used to be her archenemy and now they are partners.
I begged her to put Mr. Muggles down and tell me where my Alpha Male/newly elected/Kennedy-like husband was.
"No"
She just said "No."
EXCUSE ME?
Then she got a dvd out with some of a show I used to be on and put it in the player.
While I had to get snacks for Mr. Muggles, the two of them watched the scene while 'Mama' laughed and laughed.
Mama is mean as a snake and mad as a hatter.

I had a dream(nightmare) this morning before I awoke-
A man named Sylar said he loves big butts and then he showed me this:

I am sending Monty and Simon to Summer camp, it is not easy pretending that
everything is allright.
Plus, they are using Nathan's clothes to dress dogs in, I have no
clue where they are getting the dogs. The dogs seem happy,but this is not how they should be
acting!

Nathan could of at least left Peter to keep me company,he is way cuter than Nathan
but in a less manly way.
But did he? NO! had another dream last night about Nathan. He was all glittery and was hopping around the room saying things like "Fly! Boom! Hero! ME!"

Even in my dreams Nathan has a big ego-

Anyone know where my husband is?

It was a proud yet disturbing moment when my husband, Nathan Petrelli

became Congressman.

I can't say why it was disturbing because he instructed me not to say anything.

I really am thinking of backing out of that 'verbal agreement'

Why? The reason is-I can't find Nathan! You would think one of the most visible men in

N.Y.C. would be easy to find-right? WRONG!!!!

I keep hearing his voice in my dreams, he says things like "BOOM!" and "I'm like Patrick

Swayze in Ghost-sexy,huh?"

What would that even mean anyway? Mama Petrelli has stopped by with old Jane Fonda

workout tapes for me(I am in shape-but thanks for the concern 'Mama')


She insists that Nathan and Peter have taken 'quality brother time'

I am going to find out where he is,even if I have to tell everyone what is new with me!

So, anyone know where Nathan is?