WTF? Am I a Widow?

Peter continued to sleep after the hot cocoa I had my maid whip up. I now suspect she put Xanax in it along with the Scotch.
I finally fell asleep and awoke hours later wrapped in a human blanket named Peter.
"Mph,kill all clowns." Peter muttered.
I gently shook him "Peter,wakey,wakey,eggs and bakey."
"All my fault, have to marry brother's wife and kill clowns."

My nervous,confused laughter awoke him as he managed to distangle himself from me.
I started to turn the tv on and was confronted with slo-mo footage of my husband
being shot.


I guess I was the one who started screaming and crying this time because an hour later, I found myself yet again being held by Peter and holding a cup of Cocoa.
In the back of my mind, I decided to ban cocoa in the house ever again.
Peter told me everything that happened and that is how I discovered that my husband is a Hero.

That is how I used to know him years ago but he had changed and became hollow
and always running to hide his depression. It was only when he started to drink that
he openly showed that he is human and needed help.
Thing is-
No one knows if Nathan is dead or alive!
WTF?
He vanished? Excuse me? OMG-what is going on? It is like some tv storyline during November sweeps!(except I can't kick producer's butt if I don't like the answer)
Peter is still insisting on take Nathan's place in our family.


So, I am taking the boy's to Nantucket for a few weeks until there
is some answer about their father. I don't even know if I am in grief or just frustrated confusion.
Oh, before I go back, I have to add this:
A man came to the door after Peter departed- I had seen him before,I don't know
where from though.

I guess he works for Nathan,he said his name was Noah.
"I am so sorry Heidi, I saw the whole thing. Is there anything you or the boys need?"
"No,I am going on a trip."
He took his hands in mine "I promise, I will keep you updated on the situation. If anything happens,please call me. Day or night."
He handed me a small card with just a phone number and e-mail address.
"I have 2 children myself and I know you need to focus on them. I will call on you soon."
Now that I think of it, I don't know how. I guess he must have all the phone numbers and e-mail addresses.
Very odd.......

Lost: ashes

Look, one thing I am not losing is my mind. I know I had my Grandmother's ashes in the urn the mortuary sold to me. I always keep the urn in my walk-in closet because Grandmother loved fashion.
Monty was helping me pick an outfit out the other day and the urn had been moved to the shoe closet.
"Monty, did you try to play with Grandma again?"
" No, it wasn't any fun. She was pretty."

"Yes she was and that is why you can't play sandbox with her." I reminded him."Now what do you think of this outfit?"

Monty went to move the urn back to the top of the middle set of dressers and stopped in his tracks.
"Um, can Grandma run away?"
"Don't be silly." I took the urn and discovered all the ashes are gone. I
looked all over. I even vaccumed each room to see if I could find her that way.
Who take her ashes? Really, I want to know? Who and why?
The only person who has visited was a really sweet girl who was looking for her dog.

I know she couldn't have done this!
Who has any need for human ashes?

Thanksgiving at the Petrellis

As if the madness hasn't already reached operatic heights, I have to be the one the family goes to for Thanksgiving dinner.

I do not even know how people are going to be arriving! R.S.V.P's only go so far when some family members are alive but missing. I have to let Dean and Deluca know my order way ahead of time.
What? I don't do cooking-why should I?
Look, I want to know if Peter is going to be there. If he is alive, I need to know if I need to add him to the table plan.

Peter always helped me with holiday meals, from planning to holding the
meals. He was my rock,my friend and he helped me believe in myself. Peter also helped me pick out outfits for each event.
When I first was unable to walk, I was an emotional mess,I mean total
wreck and it was Thanksgiving Day. I didn't want to go anywhere and I had to go
to a charity dinner Mama was heading up.
Of course, Nathan was not around,he was probably with some tramp.
"You are going and you will blow everyone away by your beauty." he whispered to me softly.
I was in bed at the time wearing my Hello Kitty pajamas and did not intend to get up.
"My life is over Peter,you have to face up to the truth."I snuffled.
That is when he actually picked me up and dragged me into my shower.
"Peter! I am your brother's wife!"
Water was soaking his clothes as he found my Philosophy shower gel "Yeah and I am a nurse and you need taking care of."
I know what some of you smutty-minded people must be thinking and he just helped me to shower.
He and I went to that dinner and had a wonderful time and it was so much fun.

Nathan never knew about that day and I doubt he would of cared. This is a new
year and I am hoping a new Nathan. An honest,caring Nathan who I can love again.
Please Peter, come home.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

My Realization

I married the wrong Petrelli,didn't I? I said DIDN'T I?
My apologies, this year has been beyond bizarre and I don't think anyone can argue with me about this.
Nathan has been cheating on me for years and now he is running about as if he is a single man.(not)
My sons could go all 'chosen ones' once they reach puberty and also getting super powers. What is a mother to do?
On the other hand,maybe they will become 'Superduper Stepford Sons'. One of the can become President of the United States! Or maybe KING! Ok, forget the king thing,unless he marries a Queen.
Uh, wait, that just sounds bad.
What would of happened if I had fallen for Peter instead? I could of been
really Emo for him. Younger guys are really trendy these days.
Peter never,ever would cheat on me and his taste in fashion can not be surpassed. He is wonderful with children and is sensitive and wow,talk about a great body.
If anyone sees Peter, could you tell him I need to see him? Nathan told me he has this power to go back in time. Hmmm....
*SIGH*
NOTE TO NATHAN:
Please get your perfect,manly butt back to me. I swear
you will enjoy the whole new Heidi.

My son Simon

Hundreds of Japanese snacks in stock at J-List

My son loves Japanese snacks- He even is learning the language. I don't know what brought this on. I am not complaining.
The boy's went to a few Halloween parties and also to the annual Hyde Park Haunted Forest. They had a good time at all of this,but still miss their father.
Nathan did stop by
"Hi Boy's what are you dressed as?" he asked both of them.
Simon spoke up "I'm dressed as Zebraman-yatta!"
"Peter, your Uncle is dead,dead!" Nathan started to sob.
Poor Monty tried to change the subject "I'm a Superhero!" He pointed at his dark Spiderman costume.
"Wahhhhhh" Nathan than ran away leaving a trail of candy behind.
*sigh* It is a start I guess....

Just need a break

I booked a suite at the Peninsula for a few days just to be able to relax!
I need to look my best when Nathan returns and the spa treatments at the Peninsula
are simply fabulous.


I ran into an old friend of mine who asked about Nathan.
"Oh Nathan is fine, he just is dealing with Mama Petrelli's health problems."
"Is that why I saw him pointing at a glass elevator and screaming "I'm melting! What a world,what a world." Ron asked and seemed rather concerned about
Nathan's reaction to the reflective surfaces.
What was I to say about that?
"Oh, Nathan is practicing." I forced a laugh "The boys want to audition for
"The Wizard of Oz" at their school. Nathan really wants to help them"
"Good old Nate."
Ron didn't seem to really believe me,but he pretended to and that is all that matters.
Well, off to my pilates class!

Where in the world is Peter?

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I truly feel Peter is alive somewhere and is probably being angsty. I don't know why he vanished,but he will appear.
I can't explain this feeling,but I keep having dreams about him. For some reason I keep dreaming that he is on the canceled episodes of 'The Black Donnelys'
Is that crazy or what?
My son's have been watching this new tv show titled 'Chuck' Usually I I don't let them watch tv during Monday nights.(homework!) The show looks good,so I let them have that hour.

Back to Peter,
I tried many times to explain this to Nathan,but he refused to listen.
"Hic,burp." Then he would look in a mirrored surface and scream "eeeek!"
He had to have been looking at his beard,perhaps that was why he drank alot.
"He is alive,why would you think you killed him?" I would ask
"EEEEKKKK!" Look at me in the toaster!"
As you could see, these conversations never went far.
But why the Black Donnleys? Why not say,Studio 60?